The Rides Of Life

did nothing interesting today......
was so damn busy from the time i stepped into camp till the time i stepped out of camp......
still managed to pluck up some energy to go running and to the gym......
was dead tired after that.......
sigh, i wonder when this workload is gonna end.....
dun think it will cuz of SARS......... sheesh

i'm just feeling really tired.... physically and mentally.....
need a refreshment somehow......
need to get out of my miserable circle of thoughts and break free.....
but somehow i feel trapped inside, not seeming to have any escape......
am i holding on to things that are not meant to be?
am i just escaping reality and hiding in my small box?
all i want is to find solace, to feel loved and love in return......
but it seems like i'm fading away......
fading away from hope, fading away from everything......

sometimes, i'll just star blankly at my com's screen.....
then hurt and sadness comes knocking at my door.....
try as i might to chase them away..... but most of the time, i'll let them in......
cuz they seem to be my only relation.....
helpless and empty i'll feel...... think i'm broken
and lost and gone......

think i'll just sleep it off like i always do......
telling myself tomorrow will be a better day......
but when i wake up, i'll know it'll just be 'another day'

Lord, help me..... i'm sinking deeper and deeper each day....
Hear my humble plea...... forgive me....

- GOT NOTHING -

posted by de @ 8:21 AM